I said to Ria the other day: "The incident made me realize how naive I am. I'm deceived by his niceness and kindness. I didn't know there is such a thing as a sincere chameleon, that he could treat Ed in one way, Manny in another, and me, a third way. When we are all together, I see that he treats us differently, he doesn't hide it, and yet I refuse to see it! I see but don't see it, do you understand? I thought he's nice, kind, feminist, pro-gay, anti-racist, etc, mean that he's honest, loyal, etc, all the virtues of a saint. How am I to know that a person who is kind in all ways can be a hypocrite? That he can be loyal to all his friends but disloyal to me? The incident makes me re-evaluate my friendship with him, whether I can trust him again and which his real personality is. The worst thing, the worst thing is I'm saying all these AFTER the incident. If I've said it before the incident, which I should because I saw through him then, people would say that I'm smart and perspicacious but now, it makes me look like a bitter, vindictive fool!"